So I have no idea if or when he's left/leaving. I'm fine with that. I was a bit concerned that he was getting a bit burned out by the wait, and then I was wondering if the wait was for the best as he was getting really hostile.
It's hard for a parent to watch their child, even an adult child, go through tough emotional challenges...and not be able to understand what they are battling on the inside. I mean, I can't even begin to understand what it means to him to be deployed. He seems gung-ho to go most times but then he's also pissed at the whole world at the same time. He's been pissed at the world for a while, before the Army, so that could be coming back now that OSUT is over and he has more freedom to be himself.
I just wish I could know that he is happy with the career he has chosen.
Our conversation today was much more positive than any we've had lately. It made me feel happy that he seemed so positive. It made my heart smile. :)
I also had to realize that every conversation I have with him better be appreciated to the fullest extent, as it could be our last one for a while. So while I was taking his venting sessions as a gift, the talk we had today was a special gift and I'm very glad for having had the opportunity to talk for so long.
I sent off an email to his FRG, he has no idea what he's supposed to do to get me access to his FRG so I'm going to see how far I can get on my own. This could be fun. :P At least I still have contact with him if he needs to help.
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