Mike deploys soon and my brain has begun the countdown. Every morning when I wake up... " ___ days until Mike leaves" plays in my head.
He seems to be handling the upcoming event as well as can be expected. He's on a bit of a roller-coaster. He fluxuates from being gung-ho to being pissed at the world for various things. Don't think this is new though, Mike's been pissed at the world for at least the last 7 years. Maybe longer. I do think this is a very emotional event for a group of guys who are being taught to kick emotion aside and deal with the facts at hand. From my point of view he is sort of purging his anger and getting it out of the way while it's still safe. I have a feeling it won't be back once he leaves US soil.
He's a good kid, er, I guess it's Man now, isn't it? He's a good man with a good head on his shoulders. I am sure he's going to be just fine.
I'll still worry, of course. That's my job, isn't it?
:)
((Hugs)) to you and Mike.
ReplyDeleteSaid goodbye to son last night as he leaves for OSUT. It was awful. Then I come home and see his big shoes on the floor...: (
We are going to end up like the Velveteen Rabbit when this is all over. Hearts all scarred up, but more human because of it.
Seeing their items around the house is just the worst.
ReplyDeleteMike actually moved out 2 years before he left for OSUT and it never ever hit me like that when I'd find his stuff that he'd left with us. As soon as he went to OSUT, his old textbooks that his sister inherited, his old pair of shoes he hated so he hid in the box in a closet, even food he liked would set me off.
I've definitely grown from this whole experience. I now have a much better view of life and try to enjoy it as well as see the beauty in things easier. I don't take anything for granted any more.